Again

Once again,
I failed everyone...

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I can't do anything right.

stop.being.scared

Maybe I cared too much, 

and it makes me don't know what is the right way to care.

Maybe I take everything too seriously,

and it hurts awfully.

Maybe I just don't want to hurt others,

but it ended up hurting everyone.

Maybe I am just scared,

scared it won't be back to normal,

it won't be that peaceful again.

I am still afraid to take the first step,

because I am scared of the risk it might torn us apart.

I know changes are good,

but understanding and experiencing are two different things.

I just don't have the guts,

coward.

Why did I treated this like the world is going to end?

Why did I afraid to stand up even though I know I am right?

Why am I afraid?

Why?

Why do I feel so tiny and weak....

Why am I scared of those bloody comments which doesn't mean the way.

I don't want to hurt anyone,

but I ended up hurting everyone.

别再人身攻击了

发言被打压，
被说是固执，无法接受人家的想法。

不发言被指责，
被说是没有看清楚整体，没有自己的判断能力。

不对，都不对。

因为到最后，
觉得是经验老套的自己对。

说lynas没有问题，
因为世界各地都有辐射的东西存在。
很多东西都存有辐射，
因为化学的却存在。

可是咱们不认同lynas不是因为此事由BN引进；
也不是lynas出产稀土，
更不是因为随波逐流，
你反我陪你反!

我曾research过lynas，
我明白反对lynas的理由。
我质问的是为何工厂需建在住宅区附近，
我质问的是为何工厂会建在人口比例比澳洲多的马来西亚，
我质问的是类似事件已发生在bukit merah！http://www.malaysiakini.com/news/163166 为什么我们还得让历史重演！

你说我们不该反对lynas的理由是因为此公司是由pahang的sultan引进，
本身觉得文不对题，毫无关联。

其实更让人痛心的是，
你都这么认为了，
为何使用电脑就一定会有很多辐射的问题呢？
可是lynas就可以被谅解呢？
咱们房屋对面不到500米有一间电房，
你也没有怨言。
使用电脑却是会导致健康受损的主因，
我不明白，
真的不明白。

也请你，
不要用我曾是辩论组的组员攻击我，
我有寻找资料。
我明白什么是对与错。
我清楚自己在做什么。

真的很荒谬。


我真的不要了。

To me.

Let's just make it this way.

Don't shout,
Don't curse,
Don't argue.

Accept and analyse,
with pure tolerance.
Be patient,
and wait for the right moment.

When the time is up,
the door to the rights will be opened.

Follow the winds,
which hold your blessing soul;
The entrance of freedom,
should appeared before dawn.

If you found the door is locked,
means a key can be found in the woods upon.

No free lunch can be found in this world.
A process or a journey won't be tough if it is wrong.

Just wait for the right moment.

Let's make it this way.

眺望

多少天了啊。。。

带着这种情绪满街跑，
一直想找出口，
想要释放开来。

疯狂有代价，
不顾世人眼光做事果然不是自己的作风。
可青春只有那么一次，
现在不来个狂野的生活，
几时还能动？

真的觉得自己是对的，
可是不懂的思想造就不同的评价表。
不能比较可还是很伤。
只是想找个认同感。

知道自己没有那么伟大，
或者说没有那个勇气吧。
所以会累，
垮了，
睡了。

但一定坚强地走过这一切，
千万别让自己沦落到逞强的阶段。
每个事情都有代价，
暴风雨过后就是彩虹的安慰。

睡吧，
别怕了。

You did it again ;)

A big surprise indeed,
thank you for making the 23rd a special day.

Like what I said, miracles came true around you,
unexpected things happened with your presence.
You made my day,
and my life. :D

Wanted to say the things out in here,
but since you requested,
yesterday will be an early note.
(What I wanted to say are already been said >.<)

Thank you for coming into my life;
I love you too for all you did to me ;)

:)

啥啊？

繁杂。

想来点儿小格调可就是不对味，
没有对的时间，对的地点，
对的事就只能是个错误。

我强调了很多次，
时机真的能改变一生。

久违的宁静，
却可能迎来谩骂。
得接受忍让，
可得过且过真的好吗？

知道无法改变他人，
就从自己开始吧~
可只是改变自己，
偶尔真的会累垮啊 。

发现自己原来真的很需要陪伴，
害怕寂寞，
害怕孤独，
害怕失去所拥有的幸福。

咱们真的很像,
都是需要爱的人:D



又回来了，
你好。

Lucky

Lucky
Jason Mraz (feat. Colbie Caillat)

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh



Sometimes I wonder,
Am I a lucky star?

Until that very day,
I finally get to confirm with myself,
Yes, I am.
因为拥有你，所以我现在很幸福，谢谢你。^^
爱你哦~

:D

其实真的想写些什么的，
纪念这一切。

可人家就是在高兴的时候特别不想提笔。
难怪好歌好诗都是带着伤感色彩的:P

就祝福这一切，永远~

我不相信承诺，但这真的很温暖。:3

但就是会相信，
因为没有不相信的理由。

Tired

I never knew driving will used up that much energy,

all contributed to fear.

Nice job......=.=

Ever since that goddamn crocodile pit,

I am losing my confidence slowly.

That was the time I realized failure will lead you to the endless pit.

I scared failure ever since,

big failures,

failures that affect the surrounding,

that affect the people around me.

No way......

From young,

I always thought the best way of solving problem required sacrifices,

that means no matter it hurts yourself or not,

you still need to do it.

There is a price to pay.

每件事都有它的代价啊……

BUT,

I was wrong.

The best way is to save us all,

together,

not leaving anyone behind.

Thanks to "XXXHOLIC"

:3

but still,

how to get rid of this feeling?

“When one sacrifices oneself to help another, it could actually be painful to the person being helped, especially when that person is of importance to them.” -“XXXHOLIC”

You need to understand, you know.

别再伤害自己了。 :(

别想太多了。

A wishing star

To get what you wish for, you need to pay a fair price.

So, what is your request?

How much should I paid?

When you lost something, at the meantime, someone or yourself gain something.

So, what is missing?

Did you receive any benefits?

There is no free lunch in this world.

So, did I paid the price for that?

Is it meant to be mine?

One said don't ever lost your hope, but I need to remind myself don't give yourself too much hope.

Am I doing the right thing?

Or it is just my imagination?

18啊

一起身就哼着《不想长大》，
因为知道离与童年的离别不远了。

18，
一个青春的数字。

18，
一个残忍的符号。

18，
就只是18。

我的18岁会是怎样的呢？
竟然想起《逆风18》，
虽然我没看。

朋友说，
岁数只是一个数字，
你想以哪一个岁数活着都是你的决定。
一个60岁的老人可以以16岁的心态活下去。

是啊，
我很想。
成为一个大人很累。

可是我也真的非常非常非常非常非常非常非常非常非常非常非常想以18岁的方式度过我的18岁。

小时候多么希望自己已经18岁了。
18岁的时候多么希望自己不要成为18岁。
18
18
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我明明就还记得去年写着《16 going to 17》的那篇，
时间过得好快。
哈。

18岁，
会是怎样的世界呢？