温暖

没有兴致什么都是假的。
很多东西想说，却不知道要怎么开口。

倾吐而出的东西，时间不对也只是一派胡言。
怀念。

原以为喜欢月光，
银色的光芒不闪烁却有力量；
原以为喜欢月光，
温柔地俯瞰沉睡的大地;

原以为喜欢的月光是温暖的。

那只是以为。

回头看，
所有的偶然都造就了现在的必然。

侑子说过，
“世界上没有偶然，只有必然。”
Everything is fated, everything happened just because it is fated to be, nothing is random.

NOTHING IN THE WORLD HAPPENS RANDOMLY.
So, that's why I found a lot of coincidence.

When every puzzle pieces join together, you get to see the whole picture,
so does my future.
Glad to be,
yokata.

But what surprised me,
is the final picture.
I never guess and never foresee the final results held the picture of a sun.
A sun that shines;
A sun that I will never approach.

But things changed,
and that is why our future changes too.

“The one thing that can change a person is meeting another.”
I think I figured out why,
I think.

所以人家说，
当你冷的时候站在阳光底下你就会感觉到温暖。

让我幼稚，就那么一次。

收拾行李收到自己pek chek……
第一次为自己任性结果只能在那里生闷气……
因为讲下去的话，
一定会大闹天宫的。

这也是没法子的事，
谁叫我就是个夜猫子……

一直想要有自己的世界。
或者说，能单独生活，
以我为中心，
让自己去任性，自私一回。
因为一直迁就身边的人好累……

人家说做人就是要放大胸怀，
将心比心，
忍一时风平浪静啊同学。

从小就跟着这些思想行动生活，
突然回想，
这真的是我吗？
难道我真的是那么小心眼？

仔细看回我的个性品德，
虽然说是我自己的思想和环境培养出来的。
可根据这句话，
我们可以得知“思想”和“环境”这两个字是多么的危险。
思想可以被人灌输，甚至洗脑，
环境可恐怖，
通常问题的起源都跟环境大有关系。

啊哈哈，
还以为从小明白后可以习惯成自然。
可想再看回，
我到底是谁？

我是不是充其量只为别人而活着呢？

总以为自己了解自己，
总以为知道自己要什么，
总以为比同龄人更了解自己的梦想。

再看回，
性格是不会造成他人烦恼的好好脾气，
想法是他人都希望拥有的清晰，
追求的是众人意想不到的深奥……

这真的是我要的吗？

还是那一句，
我到底是谁？

活了17年，
我还以为我认识这个叫罗玮颖的女生，
可到头来……
我竟然一无所知……
我不知道啊……

就真的想为自己活一次……
找出自己是谁……
我想重新认识，那个被埋没17年的自己。

没看到不代表不存在，
也不会因而消失。

我真的宁愿，
有地方让我不成熟一次。

这是愤世嫉俗吗？
竟然讨厌起社会，讨厌起人群，讨厌起群体……
可明明就渴望那聚在一起的温暖。

很不喜欢当责任降临群体的感觉，
因为大家都变现实了……
如果大家快快乐乐，
一起来38打闹，
不就很好嘛？
原来渴望的就只有那么简单啊。

Negative emotions always breaks down my daily routine,
so I hate negative emotions.
But I realized the more you ignore, the further you are with your normal life.

Everything have its explanation,
don't call a kid dumb or scolded him for a bad attitude.
They act like this just because they took the wrong path,
they don't understand.

Every one wants to be a role model,
if you had a choice,
will you choose to become a brat instead of an elite?

Emotions will affect your choices and thinking methods,
slacking is not because you are lazy,
you just don't know why you should do that.

Being sad don't give you motivation,
that's why sad people are not productive.
And that is why humans are taught to be positive,
other than health,
it is good for the development of the society.
What a reality！

Ops! Did I act cynical again?

Sometimes I just want to indulge.
I don't care what is the risk,
how big is the risk,
how regret I will be.
I just want to enjoy myself at this very moment.
Oh gee...is this a sign of self-harm again...

What a relief if I get the chance to say that!

To blend in this society,
in order to live normally,
by separating your feelings and logic can help for a certain time.
If your rational starts to feel tired,
feelings will overtake you.
Is that what happens to me right now?

If you don't finish packing your things, you won't enjoy the morning tomorrow with a lot of scolding and signing,
but in this situation how can you pack?

I prefer to live alone...

Just for once.
Can I?

AND WOILA!

Looks like a lot of cartoon characters understand how I feel right now.