Can't lie to myself

I can't bear it...

For months,
there is nothing.

Maybe there are some sparks,
but just ordinary small sparks.

Well，
no hi,
no bye,
not even a nod...

It was me who is the coward?
Or it just a drama direct by my sensitvity.

What else？

I need to admit,
but i don't want to.
I don't have the courage to lose it once more.

I felt sand turn to dust,
escaping through my fingers.
I can't grab it for I will lose more and more...

Gasp....

I turning into shakespeare myself....==

oh gosh....

Yeah,
I can't lie to myself.
I hide it from others but i can't hide it from me.
Afraid to see,
but I am forced to look at it.

Really,
 I miss him alot.